If I were God…

If I were God,
I would die,
Before causing unnecessary pain
to one thing I created.

If I were God,
I would still love you
regardless of how angry at me you were

If I were God
(and you were you )
I couldn’t look into your eyes
and not forgive you
all things!

If I were God
I would give you every good and perfect gift
and wouldn’t send you to hell
just for not knowing to say thank you
(how could you have known to?)

If I were God,
I couldn’t give you
sun and blue sky every day
(sand is easier )
so I would rain in your tears
I would snow to cover your agony
I would send thunder, lightning,
shake the earth
when someone touched a hair
of your head

If I were God
I couldn’t put you first violin
and everyone else 2nd
but I would want to.

I would move heaven and earth
to do it;
leave no stone unmoved
to do it;
make the rocks cry out
and the very animals talk
to do it…

if I were God
I could do nothing else;
If I were God; I could not
could not
could not
help myself,
but love you
until death did part us
(but for a season)
(only for a season)

If I found out somehow
you were looking
for another job
(or even beginning to think about it);

then – if I were God – I ‘d take you out to lunch every day
to the best restaurant in town
and sit quietly with you
until you told me why
you are so unhappy
[with me]

If I were God
and you were you
I would send everyone else to hell
for hurting you…
except,
when I looked into each face
I couldn’t actually bring myself
to do it.

So, if someone needed
to go to hell
I would sigh
and take a deep breath
and hold my breath
and go…
just for you!

If I were God
I would have that thought
for each “you”
I created
(wouldn’t you? )

If I were God
and you were you
I would lift you high in my arms
and swing you around
and say “i love you!!!”

I would take you to my office
sit you in my big chair
let you draw me a picture
on my computer
show you the pictures of you
all over my office
show you that your drawing
is my screensaver

I would walk you around the office
so everyone can meet
my child
and say with a smile
“these are my children!”

If my big boss
came in
when you were visiting me
I ‘d sit you on my lap
while she talked to me
and then we’d go have icecream together

If you wanted
to go for a bike ride with me
on Sunday afternoon
I ‘d be happy about that
…so we’d go…
every Sunday we could!

If I were God
whatever you wanted
I ‘d do it
if I could

I’m not God…
but if I were…
these things would I do
just for you
because I love you

If I were God
I would never never ever
wake a sleeping child
a moment too soon
or separate
even one…
happy family.

What am I?
A piece of trash under your feet
Something not worth a moment of your time?

In the silence
I wonder what I did
Is it me?

If it is you
be honest
as I am honest
and tell me the truth

Admit your own pain
blinds you to mine
but don’t just leave me hanging
don’t you know
I’m a human being too
I have feelings, you know

It doesn’t help me
to blame you
so why do you blame me?

So next time you take out the trash
don’t take me out too, OK?

Are You Listening? (Relationships no 2)

Are you listening,
or just waiting for me to stop talking
to tell me about you?

Are you listening
or just thinking
of what to say
that will “fix my life”
so you can chalk me up
as your success story?

Are you listening
or just trying
to get away
you have better things to do.?

Will you make excuses and leave
if someone more “fun”
comes along?

Can’t you even
look me in the eye?

Would you please listen
and be sad with me
and be happy with me
so I know you care
that’s all I want;

no advice today please
I know it already
I’m doing my best
just listen, please?

the perfect Mom and Dad
who takes me for a walk
on a sunny day
the sky is blue

He holds my hand
as we walk
we look at the trees and flowers
He says “Isn’t it pretty?”
I made it for you

We can laugh together
we can play together
we can sing together
we can dance together

I have many brothers and sisters
we play, sing, dance together too
in the sun
under the blue sky
among the trees and flowers
on grassy hills
by streams of clear water
cold but clean
we can wade barefoot
the sun keeps us warm

maybe this is a little bit what heaven will be like

it doesn’t matter, exactly
I think God wants us to believe
that it is a place where we will be happier
than we can imagine
so the best way to think of it
is to imagine that anything about earth
that has made us happy will be there
because if God is nice
it will – or something better.

But outside my head
is peaceful
I look at the snow falling
white, cold, crisp
covering everything
covering the noises
outside is so white and still and quiet

And then I do what needs to be done
without many thoughts
time to relax, and be, and
let life happen
and enjoy the little things
and smile at my children
and hug them.

After Jesus cried out he realized it was written in the Psalms that he would do that. And so, when God the Father had to be separate so Jesus couldn’t be comforted by God’s presence, Jesus was comforted by God’s Word and through it regained his confidence that he was who he thought he was. And that he was doing God’s will.

My God, My God, Why Have You Forsaken Me?
(He understands our weaknesses; he was tested, just as we are)

You have always been there for me
But now when I need you most
I cannot see your face.

I thought you’d be here;
must I do this alone,
the greatest trial
of my life?

I feel so vulnerable
helpless and weak
Where is Your strength
perfected in my weakness?
Where is Your love
that is stronger than death?

Is there no other way?
the pain is so great
I do not know
If I will survive.

Did I cause this to happen?
Did I leave You first?
I would rather die
than forsake You.

Yet why do I think
if I saw You now
I’d see anger in Your face
and a knife in Your hand?

How can I ask
without hurting You
the reason why
You hurt me so?

I don’t know
whether I should ask
but the pain is so great
I cannot hold back.

Now it is done
for all to hear.
Perhaps I have failed You
Forgive me, Lord.

No voice breaks the silence
but the light returns
You expected this
You wrote my words down
Centuries ago.

Your face is not here
but your Word in my heart
has assured me of Your love.
It is the light in my darkness
the lamp for my feet.

I have enough to keep going
for I now understand
that when you seem absent
you hold me the closest;
my step is secure
You won’t let me fail.

I thought I was lost
that my faith was so little
but the faith I had
was enough for you.

All you desire
is my eyes fixed on You
that I keep looking
even when You seem gone.

You have met my need
You have brought me peace
You have made me certain
that You still love me.

Though You are killing me
I will trust in You.
May your name be praised
from the rising of the sun
to its going down.
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